Quan Yin

Quan Yin is a master teacher in gentle, graceful letting go. Calmly chiseling your way into and through transformation. I recently loosened out of my mediation practice with Om Mane Padme Hum. Earlier this year I reached my one thousandth day. There is the practice of meditating on a mantra for forty days, which is how I began counting my days. Once I reached into the hundreds, I would return to my notebook after a handful of months to see how far I’ve come, writing the date with the number of the day next to it. After I reached my one thousandth day, I stopped counting. And in time, I felt the intuitive knowing that the time is coming to lay this practice to rest. I remember the day I was meant to detach, I looked at my meditation space and the voice came through and said this is the day, rest now. But I didn’t. I couldn’t. I felt fear in not practicing this meditation, it became a part of my identity, and I couldn’t let it go. I loved the connection with the jade my mala is made of, and then felt consoled with the labradorite of my brother’s mala that was gifted to me after he passed. I felt a beautiful connection with my brother during these times, feeling him visiting the space. After 108 recitations, I had the grace of a deep indulgent inhale of the tassel, it still holds his scent. It is the scent of his hugs. I’m noticing how the scent lightens little by little over time.

Then, on a Sunday at the end of April, the day came and went. Two days had passed when I realized I had let go. The practice fell away as naturally and easily as overripe fruit falls from a tree. It was time to integrate. And so, the process began.

In the space that followed, I was attuning to the feeling of missing something that used to be there. I didn’t have a morning routine for a couple of weeks. And then slowly, naturally, upon waking I began reading very leisurely Le Neveu du Magcien by C.S. Lewis. And that gently became my morning routine. And it is easy and enjoyable. There are no worries or anxieties attached to it. I don’t have to fight with myself to get out of bed before I am ready, waking up my husband or our dogs in the process. I soften into my day, with no harsh demands, no discomfort, no worry, just a soft grace. I feel so content and relaxed beginning the day within the deep, sleeping quiet of our home, listening to the birdsongs while reading my favorite childhood series en français.

To share this sense of gentleness, dear reader, I gift you a meditation to rest and relax into a gorgeous spaciousness.

*Note: for your safety, please do not listen to hypnosis or hypnotherapeutic-meditations while driving.